on this path i have set to be by myself and learn of myself. there are the times where there is no other around and i really can feel it. it is the moments when…
- i find myself needing to talk out my issues with one i trust.
- going on a walk and not running into an old nor new face, just empty streets.
- those times where i actually miss human physical.
i wonder sometimes if i take my separation away from a relationship right now. it does get lonely and it comes and goes with phases. is it that i have not conquered the fear of taking a chance or that i am not ready? i have my distractions…
-skateboarding/art/music (a place i can be alone but not feel it.)
, but these distractions are not always there. it is when i get to stop and think about it all and then over analyze everything. seeing my easement of detachment can be much of my down fall.
right now my chest feels like it is sinking, it is all too quiet around me, and i can hear myself think ohh too well that i may have missed a good chance with things and people i have set aside in this baffling choice and path i have chose.
am i a fool?